AN ARTIST- PART 1
Why the moral policing? Kunal jerked his head, after all isn’t it my money and health, grinded
his teeth. Who gives them right. “I
know I am in the right.” he said the words out loud but no one heard it as he
was alone in his workshop. See I have
said it, then why do I still feel the pain in my head? From his position on
the sofa Kunal looked at the bolted door, at that moment another thought
spurred up. With fame comes great
responsibility. The one constant advice he kept hearing all through his
childhood to the initial years of adulthood. Was this the source of his discomfort? Was being a famous painter reason of his freedom to be being taken
away? He remembered how the people closest to him becoming cautious with every
new success of his, and came up with their do’s and don’ts lists, much to his
chagrin. Things became so chaotic that he felt choked, so he discarded
his so called well wishers, with the
exception of one, a mischievous smile adorned his face.
At
that time he heard a slight knock on the door, “Who is it?” he asked very well
knowing who it was.
“It’s
me, Manohar” the voice said.
“What
do you want? Let me in peace.”
“That
I can’t give till you mend your ways.”
“What
wrong did I commit?”
“You
very well know”
“I
don’t know, please enlighten me”
“Just look at the stack of newspapers laid on
the table”
“Don’t
lie, there are no papers”
Laughter
was heard from across the door which felt like a stab to his heart as he knew
the truth. Kunal had already gone through the morning's newspapers which
depicted his latest misdemeanour, stumbling
in a high profile party under the influence of alcohol; hence the closed
door.
“Do I
need to elaborate, you are an intelligent man” Manohar said from outside the
door.
Kunal
took a gulp of whiskey from the glass he was holding.
“Will
you be kind enough to open the door so that we can have this discussion, the
traditional way?”
From
his position on the sofa Kunal looked at the door, should have turned him out also, when I had the chance. So
admitting defeat he got up from his seat and opened the door.
“Thank
you” Manohar said and entered the room.
Kunal
kept the door ajar, as there was no further merit in closing it, and regained his
position on the sofa. He took a big gulp from his glass, and savoured the taste
as he knew it would be the last pleasurable thing he would be experiencing in
the immediate future and waited for the outburst as he saw Manohar pacing in
the room.
“What
were you thinking?” Manohar said pointing at the stack of newspapers, “they
will decimate you” Manohar added.
Although
he has grown accustomed to Manohar’s harsh words but somehow decimate, word piqued his conscious. “We came from dust and dust we shall be,” he
replied with a straight face.
Manohar
observed him for a few moments, “You understand the agenda here?” Manohar said.
Biting
his tongue Kunal knew he had let emotions override his mind. He knew Manohar
too well to get annoyed by his comments as the intentions behind the repost
were true, and smiled at Manohar.
As if
taking a queue Manohar resumed again, “Do whatever you wish but don’t blame me
later.”
Kunal
kept quiet and waited for his chance.
“Don’t
give them any more ammunition,” Manohar said picking up a newspaper that had
vividly captured his misfortune, “you are making your own pyre” Manohar added.
Kunal
knew it was the increase in frequency of such incidents that had instigated
Manohar’s anger; otherwise public relationship hazards like these were the
precise moments in which Manohar revelled.
“I just
want to add one more thing, cancel today’s interview,” Manohar said.
“Why,”
he replied.
“Because
it is the right thing to do in the present circumstances.”
“No
more blinds please.”
“And
let the people and critics burn you.”
“Let
them decide, not you or me.”
“See,
I can’t see you getting slaughtered and do nothing.”
“I
just want the truth to prevail, nothing more nothing less.”
“And
what truth is that?” Manohar asked
“That
it ok to let alcohol override you once in awhile”
“Do
you even hear what you just stated?”
“Isn’t
it I who said it.”
“Does
it occur to you what society expects from you?”
Kunal
shook his head in disagreement.
“Do
you even know what a star is?” Manohar added.
“I
don’t know and I don’t wish to know, all I want is independence of making a
mistake,” Kunal replied.
Manohar
kept quiet for a few moments, “sadly that privilege you can’t have.”
Kunal
took a long breath that expanded his chest to the limit and then exhaled.
“What
do you suggest?”
“Go
out of the city for few days”
“How
many days?”
“Till
your news gets stale.”
“Would
you be kind enough to recommend a place also?”
“Your
wish; I will get the arrangements done. ”
“What
if I do the opposite to what you suggested?”
“This
is my humble professional advice that, you leave the city for a few days till
your stupor fall news is overtaken by
some other breaking news,” Manohar
said and exited the room.
Kunal
got up from the sofa and stood alone in his workshop; “Till your stupor fall
news is overtaken” mimicking Manohar’s line he closed his mouth, and went deep
into thought. And recalled all the painful experience he endured, the
humiliating act to which he was subjected and the taunting mannerism he had
encountered over the years in his quest to become a painter; which by seer hard
work and persistence he had become. And over period of time got very good at
that also. In that personal moment he let his guard down and revealed his
vengeful side against every critic, every patron and every fan that have started
to find faults his creations, I will get
even with them; prove that I am still the best. His face had lost all its friendliness,
does these critics know the myriad of pains
an artist goes through in the process of creating art. To understand this love
affair one has to be an artist first. The anger was consuming, and his body
stared to shake uncontrollably. What do
these bums know about art?
In
this agitated state Kunal turned his face towards one corner of the room and
his eyes fell on his newest project, a self portrait. The canvas placed on the
tripod was littered with eyes, nose, ears, and mouth of various shapes and
depicting myriad emotions. But somehow he was unable to pick the right ones, and do justice to his creation. The
canvas had such a profound effect that all the ugliness in his heart dropped in
an instant and a knowing grin enveloped his face, When was the last time I got out? He pondered on the idea of an outing
and kept looking at his incomplete work, and called Shambu, his servant. Kunal
instructed the servant to get the bags packed. As the servant was about to go
ahead and implement on his instructions, “and call Manohar to the house.” he
added.
“Manohar
sir is waiting in the guest room,” the servant replied.
This is what happens when two people know
each other intimately;
after all there association was more than twenty five years, “send him in” he
said with a smile, “we have plans to make” he added, and kept looking at his
incomplete creation.
Good story. That's how real friendship is; when the other person already knows what you're upto without you having to explain him.
ReplyDeleteThe story was being played like a movie in my mind in the mid-section particularly, wherein Manohar was at the door and was asking him to open the door.
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